My family thinks about Macey every second. We are still so stricken with grief it has made day to day life very difficult to handle. Our family feels different and that wonderful chemistry that we shared as a group has been altered with the loss of our daughter. We all feel as though we are living in an alternate existence now and still can't believe this has all happened. It shouldn't of happened and we struggle with why us, why our family and why our precious daughter. Macey was a light to this world and without her here it's become a darker place. We find strength in each others love and support and without each other I think we would all surely be lost. Anyway, I think about her often, write things down about her many days, don't share them all but wrote this last night. It's not complicated or deep, just a glimpse into how I was feeling and continue to feel.
WHY
Why can't we have you
To dry away our tears
Why can't we see you
To ease or loss and fears
Why can't we hold you
The sun will rise again
Why can't we love you
Break the news to your friends
Why can't we hug you
And smell your sweet perfume
Why can't we see your smile
It lights up every room
Why can't we laugh with you
Until it hurts inside
Why can't we tell the world
You're still here and alive
Why can't we have one more chance
To see you in the morning
Why can't we sit with you
And talk until it's boring
Why can't we share the little things
The significance wouldn't matter
Why can't we cry with you
As you climb up life's big ladder
Why does it have to be this way
We'd do anything for one more day
Why can't we see you soon
When the setting sun brings the moon
Why is this world such a cruel place
It takes away and gives no slack
Why can't we have just one more day
I promise we'll give you back.
